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The Unexpected Year of 2013

2014 January 5

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I came into 2013 thinking I knew where I was going. The flush of optimism following our successful December and Mr Kat’s first year in business buoyed me up as we drove through the night in the final hours of 2012. Turns out the road ahead was as undefined as my view through the windscreen.

The night before, holed up in Kat’s study writing about fireworks, I had declared 2013 to be a year of Joyful Abundance. It was my greatest hope that the scarcity and frustration we had both experienced at times in 2012 would give way to a new rhythm.

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My big plans were to work on Capturing Childhood and implement all of the ideas we had been discussing through the Autumn. We had our first workshop booked in for May and beyond that I had a list of ideas I wanted to put into practice.

Capturing Childhood Workshop

I made some of my favourite videos in early 2013, my profile of Jennie Maizels, the Jimmy Coates: Blackout Book Trailer and Kat’s Crochet at Play Book Trailer (embedded below). The creativity of making short films is something I relish. I am making time for this again in 2014, I have one interview to edit (from July – the shame!) and another creative studio to visit later this month. Why yes, I think this will become a creative project for me.

In the Spring I gave up my day job which was a massive step forward and a big tightening of the belt at the same time. In truth I didn’t know what was coming next, I just knew that we had to change our daily lives if either Mr Kat or I were to grow our businesses.

Tightinabud

It’s only in retrospect that I realise what quitting the day job gave me. It freed great chunks of time but also mental energy that I didn’t realise I was missing. In short it gave my mind the space it needed to relax and explore.

And with that space came unexpected paths to follow. Surprisingly a growing irritation about a lack of events for creative bloggers in the UK turned into my biggest project to date: Blogtacular.

Channelling the spirit of Tina Roth Eisenberg I decided I should either stop complaining or do something about it. I went for the latter.

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The great thing about being in a creative partnership is having someone say yes when you come up with a big idea. Within hours of deciding to take the leap we had costings and were brainstorming ideas.

It may have been unexpected but from the moment the intention leapt out of my thoughts it lit me up. This was what I was unconsciously making space in my life to do. This is what I have wanted to create for so many years and finally I have the courage to make it happen.

I keep seeing a quote that says:

If your dreams do not scare you, they are not big enough”

- Ellen Johnson Sirleaf

Well this scares me plenty! The last seven months have been a fierce mix of dreaming, daring and working our socks off.

In that time I’ve experienced such boundless positivity. Not one of our friends told me I was crazy. Every single person I told was enthusiastic and offered their help from putting us in contact with potential sponsors, speakers and even saying they have booked the weekend to lend a hand. The reception from the blogging community has exceeded our hopes and  I know this is the joyful abundance I was sensing in 2013.

Working on Blogtacular has pushed me in so many personal ways. Despite my full diary I’ve been adjusting to life without children at home. Monty started school and I brought forward Betsy’s start at pre-school by a full term. It’s a funny one because it was always going to happen but the change is so big. On the plus side is time to work during the day, on the downside I miss those crazy faces.

Crazy faces in Tootsa MacGinty jumpers

I’ve been feeling incredibly retrospective this last month. It is probably prompted by a significant anniversary of my Father’s death. No more significant than any other year but it’s a milestone figure and so the media dredge up stories to fill their pages which are incredibly triggering.

The thing with grief is it’s like a meteor strike; the flowers may grow back and life returns but there is a bloody great crater where a piece of your heart used to be. No matter how long or how far you feel you have come, there is always a chance you’ll fall down inside it again.

Despite myself I did something I thought I’d never do: I got on a train to London. It might seem like nothing but it means going through the place my father died all those years before. Doing it on the anniversary took strength I never wanted to have before. But this year there was a purpose to my trip and I was rewarded at the other end. I came back to Winchester with the motivation and direction I needed to hit 2014 running.

Lonely Road

The year ends in a hurry and a stand still all at once. The tumble of plays, open classes, fairs, photo editing and wrapping (not to mention meeting an astronaut) left me exhausted. Come Solstice I fell asleep after the stockings had been opened and didn’t wake again until lunchtime.

The weather has been wet and stormy over the last couple of weeks and tomorrow we’ll be calling the builder to talk about the leak that has bloomed in the rain. After all our work in the garden the fence is currently down on both sides. We know we got off lightly but Project Garden is swinging back into action sooner than planned.

There is a feeling of being cooped up and this last week I have been itching to get back to work. We’ve had brief forays into the world between storms to drink hot chocolate at the beach or run in the woods but they feel few and far between.

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It might not be the first day of the year but tomorrow is the fresh page in the diary. Our time between years is over and we’re ready to be embraced by 2014.

My favourite January ritual of new students to greet at Capturing Childhood awaits in a week. I have a plan of action, trainers by the door and my favourite planner ready on my desk. This year is going to be a voyage into the unknown for sure!

So thank you 2013, you were not what I was expecting but just what I needed.

 

 

21 Responses
  1. January 6, 2014

    beautiful Kat, happy New Year! You are such a talented writer, not just good at capturing childhood, but also at capturing life in a few meaningful words. I pinned a quote from Mark Twain yesterday: “The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why.” XXX

    • January 12, 2014

      Thank you Lianne, that’s such a lovely quote x

  2. January 6, 2014

    I got totally sucked into this post when I was supposed to be getting ready this morning. What a wonderful year you had and what an exciting year ahead. I cannot think of anyone better to be running an event like Blogtacular, you have inspired me in the past and you continue to do so. I cannot wait to see what 2014 brings for you.
    Kelly recently posted…Nature in the home – Christmas week 4My Profile

    • January 12, 2014

      Thank you Kelly – I hope you weren’t late!

  3. January 6, 2014

    Thank you for this post, it was incredibly touching and lovely and thought-provoking. I remember reading (and admiring) your plans for 2013 back when I had no idea what the year held for me. And yes, a million times, to grief. One day this Christmas I was struck by a huge wave, completely unexpectedly.
    Rachael Lucas recently posted…not a resolution (or no more Chicken Licken)My Profile

  4. January 6, 2014

    I can’t tell you how inspiring this is (so so inspiring) and I couldn’t be more pleased for you! I’m so looking forward to Blogtacular and seeing your big scary dream come to fruition – I have no doubt it’s going to be fantastic! xxx
    Kimberly Hughes recently posted…Our Second Bedroom: The Next Big ProjectMy Profile

    • January 12, 2014

      Thank you Kimberly! Still very scared, hoping it will pass as more falls into place!

  5. January 6, 2014

    Such a wonderfully thoughtful post. I really enjoyed reading and can’t wait for Blogtacular! X
    Katy at Apartment Apothecary recently posted…2013: The beginning of my blogMy Profile

    • January 12, 2014

      Thank you Katy, me either!

  6. January 6, 2014

    Great post Kat. Seems like lots of things aligned for you in 2013 and no doubt 2014 will bring similar smiles.

    You continue to inspire me (like many of your other commenters) in your ability to make an idea work. I wish you all the luck with Blogtacular, not that I think you’ll need it and I look forward to watching from afar. I’ll rely on social media to keep me, and what will by then be a very large bump, updated.

    Lucy x
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  7. January 7, 2014

    What a wonderfully positive post! I especially love the quote from Ellen Johnson Sirleaf; challenging ourselves can bring great stresses, but wonderful achievements. We shouldn’t be afraid of the things we want, or the people who don’t support us. Love this post, so excited for what 2014 has in store! Leanne x
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  8. January 7, 2014

    Well if joyful abundance brought us Blogtacular, I can’t wait to see what you put your mind to in 2014! I think the end of the year always does have a sort of scrambly feeling to it – January gives us a smidgen of time to take a deep breath before plunging in again!
    Carie recently posted…Giggles from Blog SummitMy Profile

    • January 12, 2014

      I’m at full throttle on January – I want it all to happen now!

  9. January 9, 2014

    What a wonderful year you’ve had, Kat! Full of big dreams turning into amazing reality through hard work. I’m really looking forward to Blogtacular and meeting you, despite it being totally outside my comfort zone…it’s the good sort of scary. Have an amazing 2014!
    Angela @Little Apple Tree recently posted…Two weddings and a funeral…well, almostMy Profile

    • January 12, 2014

      Can’t wait to meet you too! Big events are way out of my comfort zone too :)

  10. Caroline permalink
    January 11, 2014

    I’ve been following your blog for a while now. I think it’s great.

    2014 is the year I’m planning on leaving my ‘proper’ job and finding my proper place in the world. I’ve got to 40 and had a panic!

    • January 12, 2014

      Thank you Caroline. So excited for you, what a wonderful moment to be on the edge of making the life you always wanted. Good luck x x x

  11. January 15, 2014

    Been so busy and not caught up with lovely blogs for too long, hope 2014 is a year of even bigger dreams! May it be a truly happy one for you and yours. Beautiful words, grief is hard x

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